This time next year

I had a nice relaxing 4th yesterday... then I saw the Macy's fire works in NYC and saw a the little children with there parents and I couldn't help but think if by this time next year I will have my own or at least be expecting a little one. Then the stupid apartment neighbors had fire works when I was trying to sleep and that highly annoyed me, I didn't sleep that great and I continued to think about it. Then I got mcramps and thought here we go, how could I have even thought I could be...